life is like a monopoly game

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

issues...

i always feel that im being used or something, feel soo the used up by people. i layan2 then somehow they ditch me lah, but not in a life boy ditch girl. like dating halfway then a sudden stop. but this one is not also call a date also. wtf did i do wrong huh.. im just normal. i not an expert about this kind of stuff and things but i really want a long date that i used to have with this BITCH than she ditches me!
i want a sincere and pleasent date. just a date, but not into a relationship. i guess that maybe u have to much commitments outside other than school work home. i know why u started to give me changes. im just really confused are u sincere that ur giving me chances. soo suddent. alot of my friends say dont give up u. its like ur the only one im thinking for a long relationship date since i broke up with my last ex, dats what i want, but i cant see u often and u have to much activities outside. for me. i have much things too but i can manage time maybe to meet u or sumting.... im willingly to..
asking u out is also like stirke 4d sia. once in a blue moon only. like mac donalds shakers fries promo doesnt last long.
but please, i have somethings to tell u, its personal. maybe u will get mad at me.
sheesh! i think im not the guy material that girls need. im not despo for anything. the one thing i wanna get back on track is my love life. i feel like a gay u know! almost everyday with aidil only.. somore he has a gf. im not jelouse. in my life, i can have no gf but i must have alot of friends behind me. but my currents situation is, got alot of friends but all contactless.only a few, they also bz with work and thier life too. zas! i just have to go with the flow. ape nk kene. kene jek lah.
"kate skater mah. jatuh luke2 tetap nk try lagi sampai dpt" dats for u girl.. remember that i wont stop on you.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

holla and my peace be upon everyone!

yesterday was fun. longboarding with alot of my friends till 5am.
today work was okay. fun but not as fun as the past few days.
cotton on staff rocks!
to the one, im just waiting for the right time. not rushing. gah!
ape ni ebal??!!! tunggu tunggu.
im taking it very slow seriously very very slow dating process, im waiting the right time to approach u.
then we could take it slow.
but i guess it will take long and longer
time for that moment.
it looks like u have someone in mind. soo i cant do anything.

peace'bal

p.s actually i cant lie, i always think of u,like REALLY cannot get out!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

the world see the good of u, but some things only u know.

And I wanna erase but I can't stop seeing your face
I try to replace
You with why cant I get over it
Simply cuz I cant

"Daen A. Ali I produce works of art that are primarily subject to aesthetic criteria. I exhibit my exceptional skills with the use of vibrant colours and props. I am a Makeup Artist."

today was a hush hit to me.
talking about education to me fam.
so discouraging to me. it hit me straight to me feelings.
wanting to continue studies at la salle. such negative feedback i receive.
goosh! i now really need someone to talk with. really badly need to.
dah lame tk rase the urge to talk to someone this badly.
last time was i with mirah, that was soo long ago!
now, if i want to continue my studies. i have to go poly. which is a tough one for me.
im now planning to take private o with my own money sia. if i want lasalle, lagi terok. i dun have that money.

to be actual. imy too. the fact is ur soo far but yet soo close. miz those time.
im just gg with the current flow. i dun also put high hopes too.
both of us is bz wif our lives.multi-tasking everyday.
ill sure gat back to you soon, maybe just for a quick dinner or someting.
sometimes wanna ask u out also like 50/50.
mind thinking, shes always bz? dun wanna disturb? or maybe interfering someone? (if you know what i mean)

NOOR IQBAL SARIF OF IC NO. 9116405A WAKE UP!
i know i improve in a certain way. but some things are still left unattended.
i really need to improve myself. in terms of education plus relationship.
i know with the result im getting in ite, i cant go poly.
sheesh!!!! wtf is with me. for me work is not an issue.
im used to it. buck up myself to attend lesson! more disciplined.

p.s im gonna change soon for the better. ill know we both miz each other.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

thinking..
a few days back.
1 week off.
than work work work work. mcm robot!
than came her. a sudden feeling came back. i wasn't an old feeling. it feels so diff.
i shock. i have the close feeling but yet in reality soo far.

I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to live we could start again

peace'bal (",)